It’s another day and it’s definitely better than yesterday.
Right after breakfast I bought a new bike. I bought this new bike due to a sad incident which happened last month. My almost a year old bike was stolen. I was careless thinking that no one would take interest to that rusty old bike.
Boy how wrong was I.
I was supposed to give that bike to my younger brother as a gift for Christmas. Unfortunately it became a gift to someone else. Hopefully it would serve him good this holiday season.
I bought the cheapest bike available for my size and saved a few bucks. I rode it with my son in tow and we got into the city fine. However I decided to ride a taxi since it won’t be safe riding the main traffic with my son.
It was a fine day when we got home. We had our lunch and I was happy feeding my kid seeing how his appetite is back.
After we cleaned up we just relaxed planning to have another bike ride in the afternoon. Meanwhile he was back playing with his toys.
It felt good so I decided to write my catch up EoD for yesterday. I felt good having accomplished a planned task regardless if I was late into it.
It was gloomy and I looked like it’s going to rain so I decided not to push through with biking. Instead I decided to download and watch a movie. The internet was running slow so I got restless not knowing what to do in the meantime. I tried to avoid going on Facebook since I know I might get stuck browsing feeds without really doing anything productive.
With this I thought hard on what could be the most productive activity Ican do in the meantime. I decided to meditate. I didn’t set up a timer or set up any definitr structure on how I was gonna do the meditation. I just lied down, closed my eyes and started noticing my thoughts.
For me meditation is about being aware. Awareness of one external and internal world is the main definition of meditation for me. So that’s what I did.
Closing my eyes I noticed my other senses. My ears listened to the noise inside my room, inside the house and out on the street. I also noticed my breathing, steady but not deep. I also felt my skin. I feel cold everytime the air from the fan blows to my side.
I noticed a lot of things outside and much more inside my head. Different thoughts everytime I focus my attention. Some of it are about my day, what happened yesterday and what will happen tonight at work. I let the thoughts run loose. I only shifted my focus once a certain thought started to take over my awareness. I focused on staying aware and let my thoughts stay as what they are, thoughts, my thoughts to be exact. I have power over them. I am in control.
It felt really good.
Like they say meditation needs practice and I think I will keep doing it. It reminds me that I definitely can change my thoughts which usually are negative to something positive. I can even affect how I feel. I can feel calmer by being aware of my anger or anxiety. I can practice focusing on something for a longer period of time. I can do a lot of things.
Again it felt good.
I finished my meditation and opened my eyes and saw that the movie is ready and I am more than ready to watch it.
The movie finished and I prepared for dinner. I ate together with my son and was delighted seeing he is eating well. His appetite is back and his colds is almost gone now.
Overall it was a good day and it felt good. Hope to have better and better days to come.